Wow, 20ish weeks already. But that also means I'm half way through with another 20 weeks to go.
I have SO MUCH on my mind, so much I want to say, but I am horrible at getting my thoughts out in complete sentences. So, I'll do what I do best, make lists!

First 20 weeks:
~ I think they've gone pretty well :)
~ no morning sickness, no bad swelling or weight gain
~ I love love love fresh fruits and veggies. I always have, but they just taste BETTER now.
~ sigh, I am not that excited by red sauces like spaghetti. Sad.
~ I've fretted that my bump is too small, too big, too low. Poor Jeremy.
~ I haven't been much of a crier, but man do I get cranky and moody.
So now I am looking ahead at the next 20 weeks.
Tomorrow (Tuesday at 3pm) we are going in the BIG check up where they measure the baby, get more blood from me to check on all the fun stuff that can be happening to baby, and the big GENDER CHECK.
My brain is in over drive! Even now I am having a really hard time focusing on getting this all down, but I really want to because in less than 24 hours this bump goes from being just my belly to a growing little boy or girl. I honestly feel like my life will never be the same after. I want to have a record of what I was feeling the night before.
Honestly I'm scared/overjoyed/anxious/nervous/overwhelmed with love. I just want to cry like a wimp and smile like a crazy person at the same time. [Side note: If I'm like this the night before finding out if the bump is a he or a she, what am I going to be like nearing me due date? Poor Jeremy]. I feel little bubbles (near my bladder, thank you baby) and I can't imagine those are little tiny feet pushing around in there. All of the sudden it will be real: I am having a baby in 20 weeks, and this is what it looks like! AND I won't even go into what I'm feeling about being a mom and how inadequate I feel! And who decided I was mom material? Whoa, is it hot in here... room spinning?
On the flip side, I am so excited to start to get to know this little fetus. Start calling it by a name instead of "The Bump" or "It" or just "Baby" and think about will it look like me (bald big head, a lot like E.T.) or Jeremy (wide smile, curly hair). I've had so many wonderful friends and family offer me all sorts of clothes and stuff! Its just so wonderful and overwhelming.
Man, whew! Thanks for letting me get that off my chest. I just hope I can get some sleep and make it through work with out having a coronary.
Tomorrow I will update on our little one, and hopefully keep you updated.